A friend of mine took this photo of me a few weeks ago and when I first saw it, I thought, "don't I look like a dweeb?" I've never been one who likes getting my photo taken but my friend piped up and told me to look closely - what I saw was incredible.
I saw pure joy, my inner soul shining out and complete fulfillment.
I haven't always been this way. I STRUGGLED, ACHED and was tormented with the desire to find more in my life. Life never felt easy and there was always something that blocked my way. If it wasn't one thing, it was another.
I cried almost every day. My job was suffering. I didn't eat. I lost interest in the things around me. My relationships were struggling as well - especially with my husband. I could hear what my inner voice was telling me to do, but I was too scared to follow it. I ACTUALLY believed it was better to continue losing myself than to clear our the toxicity in my life. And even worse, I didn't feel I DESERVED to be happy.
My breaking point was in my apartment, closed off to the rest of my house and husband, trying to practice yoga. I realized something, "I had travelled around the world and been doing amazing things in hopes to find 'home'. But, what if 'home' wasn't where I was, but who I was with?" This started to rock the boat a little and after further exploration, I realized I needed a lot more than to rock the boat, but build a new one!
I didn't want to be the victim any longer. I WANTED TO HAVE A VOICE. My REAL voice. Not what others thought I should have. After two weeks apart from my husband, I mustered the strength to tell him I didn't want to be married any longer. It was one of the SCARIEST things I had to acknowledge as I was terrified of being alone but the fear of spending my life with the wrong person started causing me greater panic. On the other hand, it was the most FREEING action I took. After this, I realized that I was strong enough to do the things I had always wanted to do but was just to damn afraid to.
Travel alone. Start a business. Be ONLY with me. NOT settle.
It wasn't an automatic shift, but it was a BIG one. For me, and I believe for all, we have these triggers that show up in our lives to further develop our growth and awareness. When we follow our light and path, life seems to flow with less resistance. It comes more naturally. I can say from the deepest part of my being that I have never felt SO fulfilled or empowered in my life. I see how we are ALL connected and our energy flows through us, however, I AM THE CREATOR OF MY OWN LIFE. I have that power back in my life...and I am so ever grateful.
So, back to this picture - Can you see it? Can you feel it? It is my ESSENCE. My being. My soul, shining out and I am living my purpose in helping others find this place because you know what? WE CAN ALL HAVE THIS!!!
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Sending lots of light & love!